I have had family members ask me about why I do zazen . Not exactly that question but it would certainly eventually lead to this basic practice of zazen. Sometimes I wonder why I do zazen!
I would love to tell them that it is very exciting and they should try it, but does the above picture of the wall I stare at every morning for about 25-30 minutes look that exciting to you? The truth is I have great faith and great doubt! What does that mean? I don't know really but it keeps me staring at that wall every morning.
The secret of this is that there is an ox on that wall somewhere and I just keep messing with him and he keeps messing with me.
One day I will just get up from that place and go to work and think nothing about all this. I will just live my life just like it is.