Being Real

We shall not cease from exploration

And the end of all our exploring

Will be to arrive where we started

And know the place for the first time.

~ T. S. Eliot        

Every now and then I feel the need to put some kind of qualifier on this blog about my practice and what it is I write here. It's my way of keeping it real, not wanting to appear more than just what I am, this ordinary guy looking for the ordinary mind.

It's about being authentic.

So here I am (the one in the red), ordained in the United Methodist church, actualizing that ordination as a oncology chaplain.

A very lay zen practitioner. I don't even have a group I can practice with but I think I have talked about that on this blog before. I have never sat sesshin but if I live long enough I will.

I continue to do most of this practice in my head with great detriment. But I continue to sit with great faith and great doubt.

My writing on this blog is a huge part of my practice for me. It helps me clarify my life experiences and I think in some way continues to birth me into the authentic person I want to be.

So here I am. Just this. Just me. Just living and letting go, living and letting go, living and letting go.

So there.

Now I feel better.

Bows,

Alan